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Well, the “diet” went well today. I went for a brisk walk even though I didn’t want to. I didn’t hit 30 minutes like I wanted but I might have done 25. I just didn’t want to not do it so I compromised and went a certain amount of distance which turned into 25 minutes.

My title is because sometimes I just don’t know how to approach men. I feel like I’m a shy 16 year old who doesn’t know what to do anymore. At work I see a couple of guys I am interested in but I can’t look them in the eye and I’m sure I come off looking stuck up. I’m also afraid if I say hello and smile here and there that some men will take that as looking desperate or something. I know that sounds weird but I think some guys think a simple smile means you “want them”.

My sister says I should just be friendly and act like I am looking for a man. She says “what’s the harm?” lol She says there’s nothing wrong with giving people the hint you are available. I don’t know. Tomorrow I’m going to say hi to at least 2 new guys at work. I’m not saying I’m looking for someone at work but just asking what if one of those guys was worth the trouble of getting to know. My sister said if I am interested in someone then I should smile at them more and give them the hint that I’m approachable. When I was thinner this wasn’t such a big deal. But something about having the extra pounds on me doesn’t make me feel so flirty. Worried about the rejection I guess. I’ve never been the prettiest but I know I have a great personality and I do work with what I have. I was married for a long while and broke up recently. There were many lonely nights and lonely times so I’m missing affection. It’s not like I broke up recently from a good marriage. I broke up from a lonely one so I want that affection. I want to feel like someone is happy to see me and I’m happy to see them. Stealing glances here and there. Maybe I do want to feel 16 after all. : )

I weighed in this morning at 166. No surprise there. My new week begins today and I’m hopeful that I can keep up my spirits to keep going. My next step after this blog is to literally make a plan for the week for exercise and food. Then to go to the grocery store to buy a few things to hold me off until payday on Friday.

I have been feeling tired and worn out and I want to change that. How can I feel tired and worn out if I don’t do anything physical? It’s because my body doesn’t do anything so it just wants to veg.

I want to feel great and look great! That’s my new mantra. The Buddyslim Handbook talked about having a mantra and that’s what mine is.

I Want To Feel Great And Look Great!

Well, my paper and pen are waiting for me to make a plan. They can be so pushy.

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Hi! New girl here! This site looks great and easy on the eyes! After I read this I’m going to go read the Buddyslim Handbook. This site has a handbook? How official and organized is that? Love it!

Anyhow, I’m sitting here and it’s about 10:30 and I’m watching the movie “Any Given Sunday”. Cameron Diaz is in it and she looks great. Fantastic. Healthy. I would love to wear clothes and look like her. Where you can wear something in smaller sizes and they still look pretty loose and classy. That’s the best way I can explain it.

I’m going through some changes in my life and parts of me embrace them and parts of me just want to sit and throw myself a pity party. Either way, I have to lose weight. I love how I feel when I’m thinner. I weigh-in tomorrow but I’m sure it’s about 164 to 167. I used to weigh about 145 and I liked it.

If I eat better, I’ll feel better. If I lose weight and I’ll look better. If I look better than I’ll even feel more better. I know, bad grammar but whatever. lol

I just need to get organized. I’m having trouble starting. I need to make smaller goals for now and meet them. I need to feel I have accomplished something. I can’t just make these huge goals for a week and feel bad if I don’t meet them or meet them and I can’t keep up the schedule the next week. I need to feel like I can accomplish something first and then build from there.

“When I say Hillshire, you say farm! Hillshire!”